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| Monday, July 18th, 2005 | | 1:27 am |
well as u can tell ive been gone for a long time, im back..... my brother is still in the army, i miss him dearly, me n johnny have been dating for 7 months, going on 8. i live in ohio right now trying to find a job. then hoping to get a place of my own soon. ive been having some problems but theyll all get worked out soon i hope. i miss all my friends and i guess when u dont talk to them and u end up seeing them only at ur high school reunions, thats a part of growing up. and not having time to talk to friends when u love them and are very sorry for basically blowing them off. its hard growing up..... wish i could go back to being 10, instead of 18 turning 19. the days of only worrying about is angela free, and yard sales. but now im worried about where am i gonna work, when am i gonna get my own place when am i gonna have enough money to get a car, and about paying bills. in a 10 years ill go back to my high school reunion, and we'll see who is not with us ne more, who survived the real world, who ended up in prison, who turned out to be the doctor, the lawyer, the tattoo artist, who got what pierced or who got what tattooed. itll be wiers, but itll be worth it seeing all my friends again. well till my next thought.....see ya!!!!!!! | | Sunday, December 26th, 2004 | | 11:06 pm |
happy as all hell !!!!!!!!!!!!
ive been in ohio since x-mas and im having alot of fun. im extremely happy cause i get to hang out with my brother who ive been missing and my extremely good friend johnny, me n justin (my brother), and johnny have had so much fun last night hanging out. so were gonna hang out tonight too. i cant wait till everyone has gone to bed, and its juss me, justin, and johnny. well g2g bye :) | | Saturday, December 4th, 2004 | | 8:57 am |
YO
yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy im so happy im taking my road test next wednesday and i got into owens cc, for next fall. now i gotta figure out where im gonna live and stuff and work to pay for a car and cell bill, if i live with my grandparents i dont have to pay rent, if i live with my aunt i have to pay rent. im only living with some one till i can pay to live my myself so i might live with my grandparents... wat u guys think?????? | | Tuesday, November 30th, 2004 | | 4:59 pm |
sorta happy
im kinda happy cause i might be going to get my written test taken tomorrow to get my drivers license. and i might be staying in ohio over the last week of christmas break, hopefully i will be able to see johnny. i know i like him like i would go out with him, but i also like just being best friends with him. i can be totally myself around him. by the way just to let yall no phil vassar is fukin HOTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | Monday, November 29th, 2004 | | 3:14 pm |
thinking......
today i have been thinking alot about old friends and family, i miss my brother Justin, hope hes doing well, and i miss Johnny, Johnny and Justin are like my protectors, even though i can protect myself i still like the thought of having someone there who loves me enough to protect me with ne thing they could. and i miss Megan, a hell of alot. i was thinking about my old friends Kari and people like her, i keep thinking how luck y i am to have found these best friends and friends i have now. but i cant help but to think what happened to make those other guys not wnt to stay and be my friends any more. any of yall ever think about that. | | Saturday, November 27th, 2004 | | 3:30 am |
very pissed off right now!!!!!!!
ya what a very happy birthday weekend for me, hell no!!! i need to get out of here go some where do something.... i havent done ne thing in a really long time. just to go some where for no reason. or have fun with someone i know who cares about me. i know im a bitch, but i am a person doesnt ne one notice this but me, i am more than a helper for people i am more than an 17/18 year old GIRL!!!!! but o well that doesnt matter i guess cause the fun times is with a 9 year old girl. screw this!!! forget people i give up with everyone i give up trying to be friends with people, i give up trying to make people happy, i give up everything. i know the only reason he stayed over was because of cassie, i need to get out of here. NNNNOOOOOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!! FLGMDFGMDPFGMDPFMGPAOFMGDFMDAFBMCV,LMBC.X,B MFLM | | Sunday, November 21st, 2004 | | 10:17 am |
| | Saturday, November 20th, 2004 | | 7:26 pm |
i look like total shit right now, i juss got home from work so im covered in dough scrapings, and flour, and vegtable oil. i look really funny....... i cant wait till thanksgiving my brother is comming home...for the weekend and my bday is that weekend so its kinda like a bday present mostly since i cant see him that often.....lol.... | | Friday, November 19th, 2004 | | 7:26 pm |
i had a bad day, had so much pain in my chest that i had to go to the emergancy room, and i found out that it is just a muscle pain in my chest from lifting weights, oppss........lol...... | | Wednesday, November 17th, 2004 | | 7:13 pm |
hey i cant wait till i get my straightner..lol.... i spent all day at mandas house today, i had lots of fun ive been needing... | | Tuesday, November 16th, 2004 | | 2:40 pm |
you know how i was all stressed out by people demanding to know what i want to do after high school, well today at school my counselour called me down to her office and gave me financial aid papers and a high school student hand book to college, and some addmission forms to fill out. so that doesnt help ne either. and she said i dont have to know for sure until spring where i want to go as long as i fill out the forms and send them in to the schools. so i have 5 forms to fill out plus im going to see if theres ne more while im on the ball of finding a college to go to, theres so many how do they execpt me to settl eon one, lol. i mean seriously. come on one college out of 5143285 thousands of them. o well here i come......lol | | 6:52 am |
some one told me i have to start updating well here i go...................................... ........................................ ........................................ ........................................ ........................................ ...............................ok enough of that lol. well alls i gots to say is that my bday is in less than 2 weeks....i still have no clue what the hell i want to do after high school i kno i want to work at CP but then i also want to go to college and become a nurse. i have to make all these desicions real soon, cause my family wants to know. but the problem is is that i dont know what life holds for me. something could come up from now to then. u never know. | | Wednesday, September 1st, 2004 | | 10:44 pm |
ya i dont know if they even know they are doing it but my parents make me feel like shit. thats why i cant wait to get out of here. at least when i move out i can have some fun with my life. i dont hate it here but i know i would be better off some where else. | | Monday, August 30th, 2004 | | 10:31 pm |
ya i love having two jobs but i do have a feeling that hyaving both jobs, that one day its going to come back and get me. ive been talking to my friend from ohio, Johnny, to see if he wants to go to my school dance, since im a senior itll be my last year. so i hope he can go. i saw the cutiest dogs today at work and a jack russel terrior, that had only three legs. | | Wednesday, August 25th, 2004 | | 12:48 pm |
scared and sad
I need to make a reallly hard decision but im having trouble with it. i dont want to hurt any part of my choice, but i know im gonna hurt someone. :'( I am being told that if he loves me, like he says he does, he will wait for me but what if he isnt the only one to have to make sacrifices with his life. its not fair for him what if i have to also. i know he wants me to be happy he told me that. but to say the truth i am happy when im with him. and when im with my best friends.i guess ill see in 10 months, then ill make my decision.....i dont think any part of my choices realize how much this hurts me to have to choose..... cause i love them all very very much. | | Tuesday, August 24th, 2004 | | 11:13 am |
love
why is it that older people or any one else who is in love, tell people who think they are falling in love who just happen to be 18 that they cant be in love. they dont know what it is(they say), or he just wants her body for something. does that make any sense. not to me it dont!! like my brother tells me ill never know if he actually wants to be with me until i give it a shot. so i dunno whether to go for it or not. but ill figure it out. i love that boy with all my heart as a friend and i think even more then friends. like i know after i graduate i could be with him for a long time and be happy with everything. he makes me happy, he makes me laugh, yes he even can make me cry, but i still love him, he reminds me alot of my best friends. i know i can spend 24 hours straight with him and longer. and never get tired of him or any thing else like that. okay i know hes all im talking about but hes like the only thing on my mind at the moment, him and how much i miss him and my best friends. i barely get to see any of them. i did go to the movies the other night though with one of them and another friend which made me the happiest person in the world. i do miss them though its hard having friends who live so far away. but i guess you learn to deal, ive been learning to deal like for a year and a half but havent gotten the hang of it yet. Current Mood: thinking |
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